Cagle Family: October 2010

love that little man!

I guess I just need to let out some feelings, or I might be up all night thinking. Lincoln had his cardiologist appointment today. He is doing so good, I often forget he has problems. His heart looked as good as it could look, and even better. He has so much zest and energy, yes he breaths harder than most kids and gets a touch blue but that doesn't stop him at all. He is three and a half, time has flown by! When three came and the doctor said no need to rush the next stage of the surgery (you see most kids get the surgery around three or before) because Lincoln is small for his size, and he is doing so well. I was so happy we had a little longer till we had to think about putting him though that again, it's been such a nice break, and you begin to believe it will never come around. But today the talk became more serious, he's nearing that 30 pound mark. The Doctor is thinking spring, and suddenly spring seems to close. I start thinking in my head surly we could make it till he's five. I just have a hard time believing anything could hold my little Lincoln back, he special, he could make it till five. I know that's probably unrealistic, but he turns four in March and that comes way too soon! I know it will be fine, I have always been strong and felt the strength and blessing from the Lord, but he's going to know this time. He's not a baby anymore! He's going to remember the pain, he going to be able to look at me with his big huge eye's and tell me how he feels, and ask, why he hurts and, why did he have to do this. I know it's necessary, but I guess I just needed a good cry and to get my feelings out so I can be strong again, and go through what need to happen. I am so blessed, and I am thankful for my little man, he is strong. OK, time to buck up, that's a hole six months away, no need to start worrying about it now. Maybe I should through some fun pics in to cheer up this drap little post.